In the neolithic temple complex of Hagar Qim, on the island of Malta, there is a round hole in one of the walls. On the Summer solstice, during sunrise, a beam of sun light enters from the hole and creates a projection on the opposite facing stone wall that looks like a crescent. As the sun rises higher in the sky, the crescent gradually grows into a full disc.
In our bedroom, on the attic of our house, we have a window facing North-East. If we don’t completely close it, but leave it on a gap, at dawn the sun rays also enter from the open corner of the window, and project the shape of a heart on the wall behind our bed, on top of our heads! It’s slightly off-centered compared to the one in Malta (it reached the center of the wall today, about ten days after the solstice), but either way I think this is a gift of the Universe – as I doubt that when they built these houses they planned for this explicitly and did astronomical calculations!
I was looking at the beam of light, in the dark room, this morning when I woke up. I was meditating, looking at the dust and particles of air that you can sometimes see when you look at a beam of light in the dark from a certain angle. I used to get lost in my thoughts and daydreams in those beams of lights, and in all the beautiful magical rainbow colors you can see reflected in those floating particles. It had not happened in a long time.
I remembered that, when I was about 10 years old, we used to go on holiday in a summer house on the hills. I was sleeping in the attic and the same phenomenon was happening as light was making its way thru cracks in the wood of the windows shutter. I thought the whole thing was magical. One day I asked my mother about it, and she dismissed it as ‘just dust’. We probably had to get up quickly and do something on that day.
This is just an example, but it’s likely that many of you had similar experiences, where grown ups gradually told you to forget magic and awe, to shut down your emotions, to toughen up and think of ‘serious’ or more urgent things, and so on.
And yet those emotions have been living cramped up in cages in deep recesses of your heart. Your soul never agreed that certain things weren’t important. Because they are important, if they are important to you. It does not matter what anybody thinks about it.
As you are opening up to a deeper, fuller, more spiritual understanding of emotions, you are becoming increasingly aware of how other people’s emotions have always influenced you, and you are choosing your company – and your actions – more carefully these days.
I now understand where the urge to ‘do serious things’ comes from. I have been trapped in it myself many times.
I know I, too, have been urging my kids to get ready for school, as a parent, but then – as this mum did – I realized that it was hurting them, just like that behavior hurt me.
I started seeing what trap my mother had fallen into, I developed compassion for her past behavior, and for my own.
I also started working very hard on myself to stop carrying on that pattern onto my children, going forward.
Besides external circumstances and appearances, we can all work to develop a calm, clear confidence and faith in the future.
It takes determination, courage and a lot of practical effort to first dig deep, identify and then learn to break free of the limiting beliefs and patterns we learned as children (and even sometimes that we carry over from past lives).
But it can be done.
Follow your inner star.
You are divinely guided at all times. When you are calm, you feel that connection and you naturally know what to do – you feel ‘in flow’. But if you allow negative emotions (sadness, anger, grief, jealousy, guilt, despair, etc) to take hold of you, you get disconnected and you don’t see your divinity and your strength anymore.
If you feel emotional, connect with Nature – and especially with water. If nature isn’t easy to reach from where you live, even a long, relaxing shower can do! Listen to your body. Take care of it. Rest enough. Allow yourself time to day dream, or meditate in the fine dust particles in beams of light, or look at shapes in the clouds. Don’t always try to be ‘busy’ with something. Turn off those screens. Say ‘no’ to some un-necessary social activities, without feeling guilty.
Love yourself for who you are and despite of who you are. Just love yourself, and it will recharge you.
You can’t pour from an empty cup. If you have spread yourself too thin, taken on too much and are always trying to please everybody, you’ll get drained. You need to be well and comfortable with yourself and with the world before you can give to others.
If we are not at ease, we throw our anxieties and unresolved struggles onto others.
When we are able to be in the moment, instead, we don’t feel compelled to watch the clock any longer. Whatever task would need to be done, we can be ready to bring all of ourselves and our energy to it. When we are fully present, labor doesn’t seem like it’s a burden. Wood is chopped. Water is carried. The same things still happen, just more naturally.
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